Happy 38th Birthday son. As I sit and remember you today I begin to wonder who you would be today. What type of man you would have become. Would you be married and have children? How many? I always dreamed you would have had 5. You loved kids and would have been a terrific dad. You would be in the floor playing and laughing. Never caring for the outside world standards but what was in your home as the most important. Would you have coached them in sports like your father. Eager to always step in and be there. Would you have been encouraging and strive for growth over victories? Your team would stand together with everyone feeling like they were the best player because you made them feel that way. Would you have still been an English teacher or gone on like me to become a counselor? Your heart so generous and caring for others. You would have been the cool teacher who wanted their kids to understand the concepts not just give rote answers and learn by getting involved. You would have stayed up late at night carefully reading their essays and making encouraging remarks. You probably would have taken in the down and out and rallied for the less than. Your heart so large and kind. Would you have stayed living close by or gone on to far away adventures? As someone that never wanted to leave home I think you would be close by if even living far away by always checking in. You loved family. You loved closeness. The bond with your brothers and Maycie even today is not broken. You live on in their memories and stories they tell. Would you have been a good man? Yes. As simple as that. You would think of others first, make them laugh, and make them feel as if they were the most important person in the room. You loved hard and loud. Who would you be if you were still alive today? You would be my son. And I would be proud of all you said and did. I would stand in admiration of all you accomplished. Everyday I see a little of you in your siblings, in the friends that still talk about you. Who would you be today? We will never know. But what I do know is who you are in Heaven. You a child of the King. Who will greet me with open arms and give me the best hug when I get there too. I may not know who you would be today here on earth but I know for sure where you are today. Happy Birthday my precious baby boy. I love and miss you.